The truth behind a break up

I just need more time to heal. Just a little more. Recovering from a broken heart doesn't happen overnight. And I'm not even heartbroken. I'm just... broken. So I'm going to have to wait a few more weeks or months before I can completely, honestly glue myself back together, just like new.I doubt, though, that I will ever be completely "just like new" because this experience has terrified me, traumatized me, that I know I will never be the same again. I no longer believe in fairytale endings or soulmates or even marriage. But maybe it's for the better. At least now, I'm less idealistic and more realistic. No expectations or fantasies... maybe that's the way to go.This quote gets me everytime:"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy.But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you'll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there's still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable.You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occurred. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist. The person is real, and the feelings are real--but you create the context. And the context is everything.The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
- Chuck Klosterman, "Killing Yourself to Live

Contrary to Klosterman's quote, though, I didn't lose... because I'm free. I probably wouldn't have been happy with him, anyway. Only a desperate woman would wish to be with a man who disrespects her. So I win. I win because I didn't settle with someone who doesn't deserve me. (award winning statement *clap clap*)

I may have lil flabs but at the end of the day i dont l0ok lyk halamang dagat *mean*